I am certainly affected by misalignments. Lucky for me I don't have that many people to deal with.
As a simple as a little distortion will effect my train of thought. That is because I already fine tuned my mind for optimum performance. The 3 weeks and 2 months isolation was really good. Maybe that's what I should keep on doing for the rest of the month.
Looks like I have to proceed with TraXX. 247 Continuous is not responding. Did you do that Sarah?
I look at my relationship with TraXX as my relationship with Els. She can take me to Cloud Nine or she can shatter me to pieces. So I need her to be stable emotionally. A slight kink will derail my bullet train because I am going at 300 km/hour.
The issue here is I don't manage emotion like normal people. I look at emotion emotionlessly. There is a pro and con to it. The pro being we can manage emotion like any other resources; by being objective. However the con is emotion to most people is a subjective matter. This is true when a person is low in EQ.
My challenge with Els then is to let her go through the adolescent stage (a common term she uses is adulting) and allow her to mature naturally.
At the same time I should not [] (let) her lose the eyes of a child. That is her main strength. In the mean time I have to go through the growing pain with her sulking and retreating.
I can't reinforce the Parent-Child relationship. It should be Adult-Adult or Child-Child. Otherwise there will be a conflicting ego state.
That is the issue right now with Els. She still want to be controlling the sandbox in any relationship she is in. Otherwise she will retreat in her shell.
She has the I am OK you are not OK Complex:
Well we continue after this. I got to send this bit to KG before he signs off...
#traxxfm We need everybody in the team to understand that this is a symbiotic relationship. We should be moving from strength to strength. visionquest2019.blogspot.com/2019/12/i-am-c
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The good thing with Els is she is smart. That means she is capable of Learning, Unlearning and Relearning. But first she must empty her cup. I am counting on her to do that.
The girl got too much passion in her. She is a ball of energy but boy is she a stimulus-response person. One minute she is flying high, the next minute she can come crashing down.
While she is doing that, I too will go through an emotional roller coaster. One day she is happy and chirpy, the next day without any obvious reason she is doom and gloom.
If she can overcome her past hangups, she will shine through. This girl had a lot to offer but she was badly hurt before ever since she was a kid. That is why she is rebellious in her own little way.
Her way is to fight back. She concluded that to survive is to lookout for number one. However in the privacy of her thought, she is a very lonely child.
I don't know whether I am her savior. However I do know that this girl has a big heart. So only time can tell whether she can get past the pain of adulting and bloom as the rare Madagascan orchid that she is.
#traxxfm This is the same posting. I just added the last bit. It is my sine cera wish that you take my advise without prejudice Elsie... visionquest2019.blogspot.com/2019/12/i-am-c
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